05 September 2014

Living In the Now, Apathy & the Lack of Doing


I think I have finally reached a part of my life where I am not frequently reflecting on the past as much as I used to. And a part of me feels a little reminisce-y just saying that. Lately I have been focusing so much on the now, and honestly, very little on the future. Sometimes I wonder if that has anything to do with the current undulating wave of apathy that has pulsed it's way through my life. I am not really sure whence it came or why, but I feel as though my level of anxiety has decreased so I'm not complaining.

Sadly, I haven't been doing a lot of the hobbies that I used to enjoy. Reading and photography have taken a backseat in my life. I'd be lying if I said this was something that didn't occur every time school starts, but this semester I am only taking two classes and I am nowhere near as busy as when I was attending full time. So honestly I don't know why I have become so lackadaisical in terms of doing. I really need to start breaking free from this feeling, but maybe this is lack of doing is something that I need right now... a sense of calm that permeates through every fiber of my being.

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  1. you know, every summer i don't write as much and i definitely don't take photos. it feels too hot and there isn't much going on in the community in terms of events. and then, every year october comes closer and suddenly that coupled with all the community events and the holidays around the corner, it inspires me again. i've grown to just embrace the lull that summer brings :)

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    1. I think the heat really is why I feel so lethargic. I love your outlook of embracing the lull.

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