16 April 2019

Cooper's Tenotomy Surgery

Last Thursday, Cooper had his tenotomy surgery and I'm happy to say that it was a huge success. I stayed with him over night for observation and he did incredibly well. It was scary, and I was an anxious mess beforehand, but the surgery was so quick. Next thing I knew the anesthesiologist was running out to get me to bring Cooper some food. Three more weeks of these blue casts and then he gets his boots and bar. My mother in law has decided that we're going to throw him a little party in celebration of it as well. We're so excited!

13 April 2019

Mr. Bright Eyes

I swear he has more onesies than this dinosaur one - but it's adorable and I just reach for it a lot.

10 April 2019

His first visit to the park

March 31, 2019 | Lake Parker Park
08 April 2019

Cooper's Special Feet

This photo was taken a few days after Cooper was born. It’s taken me a while to share this. Perhaps a part of me was ashamed... but I know that sharing things can make it easier on the heart. Besides, I don’t have anything to be ashamed of. I have a very special boy who was born with very special feet.

Cooper was born with bilateral clubfoot - a condition that occurs in 1 of 1,000 births. His first month of life has consisted of weekly visits to change out his soft Ponseti casts which help to correct his feet. His feet has healed incredibly fast and this coming Thursday he will have his tenotomy surgery (the cutting of the Achilles’ tendon).

After that, he graduates to boots and bars (which he’ll wear for 23 hours a day 7 days a week and then only at naps and nighttime). Afterward, his feet will be FULLY CORRECTED and I can’t wait until that day. 🙌🏻 But until then my heart aches because Cooper has to go through this... especially whenever his casts are changed because he cries and it just breaks me. And I’m dreading the tenotomy because he’ll have to be under anesthesia. It’s taken my whole being not to look up what can go wrong.

All these emotions coupled with postpartum hormones have made me a crying mess at times. A part of me worries that people will think there’s something wrong with him - even though there isn’t. And sometimes I miss how his feet used to look. Even though I cried when I first saw them. Then there are other times I feel as if I did something wrong. It’s irrational, I know.

A part of me struggled to even share this because, like I told my friend Megan, it isn’t my story to tell - it’s Cooper’s. But she was right in telling me that it’s just as much my story as it is his. I’m a #clubfootmama and I’m so proud of my sweet boy.

But I can't wait until after the tenotomy surgery because after that he'll wear casts for only three more weeks and then I get to see his beautiful legs again!