15 July 2014

Realizations

My best friend in the entire world spent the night on Friday and after a few too many drinks we found ourselves sitting outside at the end of my driveway - talking. We exposed so many vulnerabilities that night. Vulnerabilities that both of us were unaware existed within the other. We listed off insecurities that we had kept hidden behind a seemingly stoic silence that most everyone else mistook for strength. It's moments like these when I remember how far the both of us have come. And I feel lucky because there is something to be said about a friend who knows you at your worst and still loves you no matter what. I am lucky to have both my husband and my best friend in my life - they have been with me through my worst - and it is because of them that I want to be a better person. It has taken me awhile to get to where I am at now, but I am finally starting to see hints of the progress that I have made. Many of my years were filled with so much hurt and anger that it clouded the reality of what actually mattered. I know I have a lot to work on still, but the fact that I have such a patient support team behind me makes that difficult journey more worthwhile.

I just love the fact that bees are a symbol for diligence, resurrection and immortality.

2 comments:

  1. I loved reading this. I'm so glad you have such a supportive people in your life, you deserve it.

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    1. I'm lucky. And thankful that neither of them have left me. Haha.

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