The verdicts out . . . pandemics suck.

The museum I work at has been closed since this past Monday. I'm one week into social distancing and my anxiety is all over the place - some days I'm okay, others not so much. The goal was to come back to work after next week, but I'm not sure what the plan is now. And as for Alex, he's on furlough for at least a month (unpaid, mind you) and we're trying to remain positive. There's just so much uncertainty that it makes my head spin. Honestly, I'm glad we have savings to fall back on (it sucks because it was going to go towards a down payment on a house at some point) but I'm thankful for. Very thankful because some people have absolutely nothing.

I'm glad that our son won't remember any of this. All he knows is that mama and dada are home with all the time and he's happy. That's the silver lining of all this for me; that Alex & I have this time to slow down as a family together. 

It's so hard to not worry about what this pandemic will do to our country, hell - the world. All the people that have already passed. It breaks my heart. I worry for my loved ones and for the people I don't even know. And what is really infuriating is the fact that there are still people out there who aren't taking this seriously. 

Either way, I hope whoever is reading this is safe and well. If you personally know me and you need anything (anything at all) please don't hesitate to reach out. <3

Also - this post from @leilastead made me feel a little better. Maybe it'll do the same for you.